Day Nine

"Life happens, when you're busy making other plans." - John Lennon

Isn't it the truth.  If one were to sit and write down their plans for the upcoming year, and then compare those plans to what actually happens, chances are . . . they're way off.  I plan to lose weight, graduate, and move up in the world.  I have to admit, that if they don't happen, i'll be a little sad.  But I've had these plans for years. . . so, thanks life.

I have a habit of scheduling everything.  By the hour at times.  My biggest pet peeve. . . being late.  I hate being waited on.  I would be happy if I were NEVER the driving force of someone else's stress. I prefer to be the accessory, the one who is just there.  But by taking risks, I know I could maybe make someone else's life better.  I want to make people happy.  I think it's time for me to quit planning so much, and just let life happen.  I have always loved surprises.  Ever since I found all my presents one year and completely ruined Christmas.  Life. . . has forced me to be a planner.  I have too much on my plate at times, and without structure, i'd crash and burn.

A new goal.  CHILL OUT!  I promise myself that on the weekends, I make no plans.  Ok, who am I kidding.  I may plan to go somewhere, or do something, but no more hour by hour stuff.  To save my sanity however, I will keep my hourly schedule for work and school.  I need that.

For the last couple of weeks, it has seemed that I've been separated from my favorite people all at once.  It's not easy.  Missing one person takes a lot out of you, missing four is worse.  I won't see my girls for a week.  This is much easier when I am buried under school work.  I won't see Michael for possibly a month.  Boards are at the end of January.  I pray for him every day.  I'm not exactly a daily prayer kinda girl, but I know how much he wants this.  I wish so much that I could do something to help, but I can't.  I just support him the best I can.  No matter what happens, I'll still be proud of him.

The temperature is supposed to drop below zero tonight.  It's been a crazy winter already, and it's only January.  I kinda love it.  Ok, I really love it.  Tomorrow starts a new year at work, and a new year for me.  I'm ready.

Bring on the life!

Till then . . .