Day 49

There are many benefits to “knowing people,” but there are also downfalls.  Like when you get excited about using a new camera for your next project, and you even reschedule time to be able to use it, and then, “oh, man i’m sorry, I forgot it.”

Oh well!  I’ll be using my JVC again for this shoot.  I am looking on the bright side and reminding myself that it really does do better in low light, which I am most likely going to have to shoot in.  

Awesome BBQ for lunch today.  My daughter has spent the day with me at the office and has been extremely good.  Tonight, dinner and a movie with a friend and the girls.  Can’t wait to just chill for a bit.  

Days 40-48

Ok, so I guess this has turned into a weekly blog.  I have been required to start a blog for school as well.  Ugh.  Now 2 blogs, a video posting website, twitter, and of course facebook, are taking up WAY too much of my time.  For school or not. . . it's crazy.

By taking the brilliant advise of a professor of mine, many of you know I landed a pretty kick ass job.  There are days where it is really hard to balance a job like this, a 15 hour course-load, and raise 3 amazing daughters.  Then there are days where it pays off.

I have been thinking about purchasing a Kodak Zi8, but have been hesitant after a couple of my classmates returned theirs.  My boss bought one yesterday.  SWEET!  He’s going to let me try it.  You don’t get many “try it before you buy it” opportunities with electronics.  So… yay crazy life… thanks for the bonus.

Taping my video this weekend.  (it was the only time my “subject” was free)

I have been asked out on a couple of dates, but I'm just not ready.  The closest i'm coming is a huge group dinner on Friday night.  HA.  I really think all of this is just crazy.  I'm thinking of an arranged marriage.  Hmmm.

Diet: AWESOME!  I only have one more pound to lose to get to my next goal.  I've been eating oatmeal every morning, and I think that's done a lot of the work for me.  Fills me up, keeps me full until lunch. . .and it's SUPER TASTY!

Parenting class for Parents of Children of Divorce tonight. . . :-/

Till then. . .

Days 35-39

Today was epic.  I'm really not sure how to explain it, but it was.  I went to a church event for new members, and a couple of friends went with me for support.  Very fulfilling.

I got SO much done today at work, that tomorrow I will be able to relax totally, and maybe knock out some stuff for school.  After dinner tonight, I met a friend for a beer.  It was great sitting with someone, and being completely honest . . . even brutal at times, with how i'm feeling about life.  I really. . . truly. . . do not feel like the true love thing exists.  Neither does he. . . so it was nice to not feel alone for the first time in a week! He poured his heart out about his new girlfriend, and he said it felt good to get that stuff out.  Sometimes, people just need friends.

I miss my girls.  More this week than usual.  Not sure why.

KARAOKE!  This weekend, a few friends are coming into town, and we're all going out together.  They say it's for my "new independence," knowing that it's not something i'm excited about, but they're just trying to make me feel better.  I love them for that.  It seems like we're celebrating my independence more than anything these days.  I can't wait for the day that we're celebrating my happiness. . . rather than my loneliness.  Someday. . . .Soon.  Maybe.

Sorry if this sometimes sounds like whining.  Give me more than a week.  I'm really fine.  School is great, friends are great, and new friends will be great too.

Diet is AWESOME!  2 more lbs lost!  I haven't been this driven for a long time.  I'm very proud of myself! I hope all of you are having a great week.  I hope it's not long before I blog again.

Till then. . .