Days 19-27 (ugh)

Yeah. .  . sorry . . . I am a "little" behind.  :-)  Anyway.  I'M IN SEATTLE!!!  It smells different.  Like. . . trees.  I love it.   I may not come home.  I think I'll just send for Michael and my girls, and live happily ever after. lol

Brand New Boeing 737

The sunset was almost constant for an hour.  It was like we were chasing it over the horizon.

The beginning of the sunset. . .

I was sitting at the hotel bar this evening, and the bartender asked where I was from.  After telling him that I was from Kansas, and I was just visiting Seattle because I "wanted to," he thought i was funny and told me my meal was on the house.  SWEET!  I love this city!!

I am sorry, dear reader(s), that I have been so lax.  I promise to try better this week.  The last week has been crazy with school starting up again.  I'm excited that it's close to the end.  2 more semesters. . . YAY! I have some really interesting classes to take this semester.  I truly think this is the semester where I actually learn something worth while.

The girls were wonderful last week, and I can't wait to get home to see them.  (though I will make sure to enjoy EVERY minute in this beautiful state of Washington)

Life is to be enjoyed.  And this weekend . . . I am enjoying it.

Till then. . .

Day 18

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET GIRL!!

The cupcake making has come to a close, and the party has managed to wear out three of the sweetest little girls.  They are all snug in their beds, and I will soon be as well.  I . . . am. . . exhausted.

I have recieved my student loan money, and school starts next week.  I am actually kinda ready!  Bring it on!  I have some really fun classes next semester, and I can't wait.

I also think it's time for a new car.  The mini (ok, it's a van) is on it's last leg, and chugs WAY to much gas!  I need a little car to just commute with.  I'm loving the Scion tc.  They actually have on on the lot here in town in the exact color I want.  And it's a 5 speed!!!  YAY!  I'm going to think about it.  But I really really want it!

I haven't been able to talk to Michael much this week.  :-(  His clinics started back up, and I've been wicked busy at work, and with the girls.  I'm sure school isn't going to help.  But we always make time if we can.

I miss him. . .

I think it hit me today how fast time really does fly.  I sat down for a moment this evening and really thought about it.  My baby girl is 4.  I started to appreciate the little things, even if for only a moment.  I am a lucky woman.  I have 3 beautiful children, 2 very supportive parents, a great job, and a wonderful future ahead of me.  I was lucky today to have the patience of a wonderful man.  I don't know how he does it, but it only proves how great he is.

Thank you. . .

Till then. . .

Day 17

Today was wonderful.  Just really darn good.  Work was good, people were great, cupcakes were fantastic, and I can't really complain.

I did find out that I have to take 15 hours of classes next semester to graduate on time.  That's kinda poopy, but i'll do it.  I have to.

I don't really feel like writing much today.  Frankly, it's late, i'm tired, and I'd like to read a little.

No news is good news. . . right?!  Oooorrr. . . I just don't feel like talking about it.  ;-)

Till then!

Day 16

I woke up at noon today . . . :-/  Not exactly the start I wanted to the day, but it is what it is!

My baby girl turns 4 tomorrow, so today was PICTURE DAY!!!  Oh man this girl is a stinker!  She posed as if the whole studio was only open for her!  Out of 3, she is my only child to NOT be scared of cameras. It was hilarious.

My daughter has had major food allergies since she was a baby.  Starting with 28 different foods, we are now down to 5.  She is deathly allergic to eggs, and peanuts, severely allergic to wheat and cherries, and still has a mild allergy to milk.  So how in the world do you make a cake for a child like her?  Thankfully, many companies now make gluten free mixes that you can buy at most health food stores.  Unfortunately, none are egg free.  I found that if you mix potato starch, tapioca flour, and water together, it makes a great egg substitute.  (most subs are still made from real egg.)  I opted for a powdered egg replacer from the asian market, and it's wonderful.  SEE!!

They have an interesting texture, but they're delicious anyway!  I think she will be really happy.

Back to work tomorrow.  It will be the first early morning with the girls since before Christmas.  I'm sure i'll be exhausted all week, until I get back in the swing of things.

Diet: Surprisingly well with all the cupcakes around!  I kept my portions small today, and never really felt hungry.  I also find myself craving fruits and veggies, instead of sugar.  (ok, don't get me wrong, sometimes I just want chocolate)  I'm pretty proud of myself!

I have 24 more cupcakes to frost, and then i'm off to bed!  Tomorrow, 24 more cupcakes!

Till then . . .

Day 15

Short but sweet. . .

I just woke up after the most horrible nightmare!  It's amazing how much you realize you care about someone when you're faced with the brief thought that you may have lost them.  It's the scariest thing in the world.

I realized I hadn't written a blog for today, which is actually yesterday, because today is . . . today.  Anyway . . .

Ooh ooh, ooh ooh ooh, you make my dreams come truueee......

Back to bed. . . :-)

Till then. . .

Day 14

Has it seriously been 2 weeks since I started writing this thing?!  Wow.  Crazy.


Reminisce: to recollect and tell of past events; experiences.

I was invited over to an old friends house tonight to hang out while her husband and his buddies played poker.  There were a few other women there that I didn't know.  Usual awkwardness.  We started playing a dice game and I relaxed a bit.  Later in the evening though, I was able to talk about the past with her.  It's crazy how much you forget, and how after only a few minutes, how much you remember.  I was really happy then.  She even said she remembers how I was friends with everyone.  I "didn't have a mean bone in my body."  That was nice to hear.  Because frankly, I don't remember much. (head injury from a softball, long story)

Anyway, this was a particularly good day.  Isn't it great how after a particularly "meh" day, the next can be so great?!  This is why life is good.  Work was "exceptionally" well, and I accomplished more in the 5 hours (yeah I was sort of late) than I think I had accomplished all week.

Motivation, I need it.  I hate how when I wake up late, I regret it.  I love how I feel after getting up early.  I hate how I feel when I've pissed off the day, so why is it so hard to motivate myself to DO SOMETHING?!!!

Laziness, it's starting to become a habit.  I have to stop it.  There is nothing wrong with me health wise (blood results turned up negative. . .for everything. . . good) and I just need to get myself on a better schedule.  Moving on. . .

Diet today: Ok. . . not good, but not really bad either.

Faith today: AWESOME

Boyfriend today: Perfect.  :-)  I am so lucky to have him.  He has a big day tomorrow, and I am with him 100% no matter what.  6 months today. . . . it's gone so fast, and if I've learned anything, it's that caring, romantic men do exist.  I can't wait to see what the future holds.  :-)

Till then. . .

Day 13

Ahh Siblings.  You have to love 'em, but you don't have to like 'em.

I spent the evening with my little brother and his fiance.  They are getting married in June, and are planning a nice little reception, followed by a "party" that none of the "old people" are allowed to go to.  Nice dude. That won't upset the family at all.  Anyway, I told him that he should rethink that, and he just said. . ."yeah."  Oooook.  lol

So today, I've been reeaally tested emotionally.  It's really hard to keep my mouth shut sometimes.  But in an effort to "choose my battles," I have chosen to keep certain things to myself.  Not easy.  Sometimes that means tears, sometimes that means calling friends who don't know the situation and simply venting.  Accepting the ways others do things, especially when you are not really sure it's the right thing, is hard.  Sometimes you spend a lot of time waiting for certain things to happen, and they never do, so you have to just accept that too, and move on.

One of the worst things ever:  When someone hurts your feelings . . . and they didn't mean to. What do you say?! Nothing!  Well that's what I do.  What is the point in making them feel bad?  It would only be to make you feel better.  So you just suck it up. . . and once again. . . move on.

Diet: BAD. . .

I had blood drawn today.  I've just been really tired.  We'll see what happens.

I just found out that studies are now showing actual calorie counts were an "average of 18% higher," than listed on the boxes of food.  Even at national food chains.  SWEET!  :-/

I think it's time for bed . . .

Oh. . .the ants.

The crazy things don't stop!

What do you think?  Do you say what you feel, even if you know it may backfire?  Or do you just keep things to yourself, and hope it won't eat you alive?  Please comment . . .

Till then. . .